Tuesday, August 25, 2009

Once Apon a Time...

So much of my life feels like a series of novels linked together by some characters who remain in every book while the other characters come and go. I am learning to embrace both the people who are solid and steady and the people who enter for only a few chapters. I guess I am on the whole book thing because I am starting a new novel in life and have been introduced to a new set of associates who are sure to become friends.

August 18, 2009 marks the day that I began my teaching career. Well it was the first student day anyway. I was working for free trying to get ready prior to the 18th. I am working at a high school as a special education teacher. So much to learn, so many great ideas flowing in and out of my head. You will read more than you care to as I work through notes to myself.

Sunday, August 9, 2009

Julie and Julia

I caught the first showing of Julie and Julia on Friday. It is funny how a movie can catapult me in a whole new direction. Sometimes I am simply headed back in a direction I was traveling before. The movie was great. After watching it, my hubby and I headed to the library to check out the recipe book that the movie was about.

We got home and began turning the pages of the recipe book talking food, recipes and how much life has changed. Julia Child is delightful and complicated! This brings me back to a desire to cook more. I took a trip to Italy a few years ago and came back armed with recipes and a desire to have a Sunday Dinner. Remember those? The days when the family sat around the table and ate ourselves silly....Mmmm some of my most cherished memories.

I am not so sure how I will fare because I am beginning a brand new teaching career, but I would like to try to set Sundays aside for cooking, baking and family. I guess I want to get back to my roots. (Ahhh...."roots" that reminds me of my hair!)

I keep looking at the Daring Kitchen, thinking I am going to jump right in there. For now I am going to just stay a month behind everyone else and try the recipes as I can. I know, I know...you are saying "just commit and do the thing". Maybe next month.

Friday, August 7, 2009

What Just Happened?

I suddenly feel like I need to rename my blog. Of course, I am not going to. It took way too long to decide on this one. Besides, who is to say that I won't want to change it again in a few more months. With that put aside, I have a question for you...actually it is a question to myself since I am pretty sure I have no followers. This is strictly self therapy for me! Anyway...back to the question. Do you ever just pause, think about your life and wonder, "what just happened?"

Seriously, what a mess life can become. I am not speaking of just one event, although I pulled off a dandy this week. One I am not sure I will be forgiven for, nor do I feel I should be. Maybe I should camp on this one for awhile.

No particulars, nothing revealing. I would hate for any of you to think of me as anything less than a princess. I managed to let an alien take control of my mind this week. I was suddenly faced with a situation that was absolutely nothing, yet my mind went reeling as if I had no control over rational thoughts. Here is some advice, don't ever try and talk something out when you are not in your right mind. I wasn't discussing, I was attacking out of fear. Tonight I am wondering what was I afraid of? Reflecting back I want to blame someone besides myself. "The devil made me do it." Not to get to deep or scare you away, but sometimes I just wonder if he tossing crazy thoughts at me just to mess me up. Or maybe I am was right in saying I just want someone else to blame so I don't look like a complete idiot. I will get back to you with more of this topic later....

A few months ago I thought it would be fun to post some of my creativeness online. There are so many artful blogs out there that I love to look at. Now I just need a place to talk life out. You might be surprised at what you find here in the future. I just took a new teaching job, I am still working as an optician, I have a need to make things which is proving to be difficult at present considering another curve ball in my life, I love to cook and I love my family and friends. You see I have many things I love. I am good at a lot of things, but don't seem to be great at anything. Maybe that is what will make me a good teacher. (assuming I am going to be a good teacher). I heard Beth Moore say something to the effect of "why can't good be good enough. We don't have to be great". So that is what I am going to shoot for through all of this. I am letting go of the dream of being great. Good is good!